went darling’s house to put down my bag and chill a bit first. had dinner and off we go to zoukout!

while waiting for J, Justin and Thiru, we went to find hippie!

i think we were quite high on whiskey already cause i have my top on. i remember J forcing me to wear my top. hahahaha!

all of us.

J



Mork!

Pussywuss.




darling!



From left to right:
Mork who just came after 4 pubs. Justin who brought whiskey. Thiru who has the funny laughter.





brothers.

derrick.

WOOOHOOO!

after that we were all too shag to take pictures. i broke 2 light sticks. the liquid flow all over my body. i was glowing later in the night! HAHAHAHA. it was an awesome night.

it’s 9:48pm and i just officially woke up from sleep. not like i wasn’t awake at earlier times. i was but i was still sleepy. got home at like 10 am this morning. zoukout was sick. and as usual, nat and i were gone for maximum an hour? as usual, i never fail to come home with bruises. i have so many blue blacks and i have this scratch on my elbow. i don’t even know what happened.

but still last night was awesome.
i realise i can drink so much better now!
had a lot of whiskey+coke cause of the stupid 5-10. J kept mind fucking me. had many redbull vodka thanks to Hippie. had many heineken thanks to Justin. He wants to find back the “6ish. yes, 6ish” feeling. hahahaha!
i’d definitely say i can drink so much better now.

what happens in the club, stays in the club.
doesn’t apply for all. if you know what i mean.
wait for pictures, folks! bug my darling Nat if you can’t wait. hahahaha!

i like how i can say that to J without meaning anything. going out now! zoukout is tomorrow!

met Shen for lunch.

met Darling and Jiamin in town.. went to Canele! Caramel Macarons is love. i swear. i just cannot stop talking about it the whole day! hahaha.
watch the what warriors today. darling forced me to watch. it was boring………….. i hate the sound system. it’s killing my ears. hahaha! but i can see that darling was damn excited. i peek at her, she was grabbing her bag so tight as tho she could help kill some bad guys.

went to FEP to check tattoo pricing, dinner, shopping.

the guy i meet almost everyday and never get sick of it.
i look really ugly there. but whatever luh.. anyway, i don’t have green hair. it’s just the lights.

PS to get J some food to eat.
Shen say i look really pale today….. do i?

But I have to. Delete every single one. I looked through them, one by one. I just cannot believe you had no more feelings for me. All that you have left for me were lust.

They say keeping yourself busy will help. I am trying so I called up the driving instructor to book my first lesson today. It didn’t help, yet it worsen. I was driving well, as expected. It’s just the instructor. Sexual harassment..

Oh well, tomorrow will be a better day. I’m sure it will.

Today was awesome shitzxsxzzxszxzxsz! Met darling in the morning, we set our priorities right in life. After, went back to office for meeting with the production manager regarding some changes for the christmas poster which i’m about to do after this entry.

wj called and he helped me check my results. it’s my best results in nafa. i am so proud of myself. i’ve got 2 C, 7 B. gpa for this sem, 2.82… i cannot believe i got B for my ISP. it has been the killer of my gpa for last year. i wanna thank phy for helping me. and, the 3 lecturer in charge. although.. zel really got me demoralized the last week of ISP period.

head to town to meet pussywussy. hahahaha! that A.S.K! had curry rice. weiloong came to join us. pussywussy and i then roamed around town and had… rather dirty talks. lol! it’s damn funny. he just wants to link everything i say into something dirty. we were so bored, we went to 7-11 at 6 plus in the evening, get a big bottle of heineken to drink and walk around town with it. Nearly vomitted outside Forum. went to Starbucks to chill and have my scone. (SG’s scones suck. i am still missing London’s) Bitchface came to join. went to Nabinz (did i get it correct this time, pussywuss?) and drama happened.

as much as i feel that i want to be strong, i know some time along this period i am sure to break down. i cried like hell after another bottle of heineken. was laughing cause i need to pee, crying and choking on smoke.

my dear pussywuss and bitchface couldn’t see me go home alone so both of them send me all the way to my wulu wulu place. awww. <3

what a day!

I am now free. No limits, no lines, no boundaries. Be sure I’d enjoy every of this moment. For now, I want to learn to fight. I want to protect myself, vent hatred and whatever not. Class starts Jan. I can’t wait.

I’ve always wanted one. This is the design I’ve wanted since I was in secondary 4? Without the “Elysha Chua” that is. How? Should i?

“If you think your life is in a mess, it’s actually a message. A message that you just have to understand and get over it. Smile like an idiot will you.”

Thank you! I did.

In 2 hours and lots of inside joke, I became bitchwitch. There’s bitchface and pussywussy too.