cannot help myself

But I have to. Delete every single one. I looked through them, one by one. I just cannot believe you had no more feelings for me. All that you have left for me were lust.

They say keeping yourself busy will help. I am trying so I called up the driving instructor to book my first lesson today. It didn’t help, yet it worsen. I was driving well, as expected. It’s just the instructor. Sexual harassment..

Oh well, tomorrow will be a better day. I’m sure it will.

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Hi.
Just a moment ago, I receive my monthly allowance. I shall plan how to use it now.

According to priority
B’s birthday present: $150
Cigarettes: $96
Zoukout: $70
Concession: $50
Food: $119, never enough! I’m going to ask parents to go Giant more often.
Prepaid Card: $28
Driving lessons: $87

That’s it.. All my allowance, GONE.
And I have a feeling I won’t have enough to eat.
How to save?

I hate driving. I hate theory. I fail my FTT today.
If only mum didn’t force me to learn. There’ll be $87 more for food.
: (

Not only that, I have 5 mosquito bites now and B is flying off to Hawaii soon. Like, next week.
: ((

He’s not coming back till 20th? He’s not going Zoukout.
: (((

I have a big project on hand now. But office’s at Hougang. I stay west area.
: ((((

Bet B’s gon say my chin is getting thicker. It was kind of awesome meeting him today.

all i want for christmas is you.

“The legion is a lightweight fitted jacket. The interior is lined with cream satin and a Brixton silkscreen print. It comes with two 1-inch pins to customize the jacket. Black.”
Credit: Brixton website

This is soooooo love right? It’s SGD$149. Let’s hope it’s still where it is on Jan. Next month got to get something more important than this. B’s birthday present! Such a waste he’ll be in Hawaii. Nevermind! I save dinner money! :D Teeheeeeeee!

A lovely surprise to me by B. Love the colours! I suppose this is my Christmas present already. Anyhow, if someone thinks this is not.. You can refer to the picture on the top of this post for Christmas present. Teeehee!

Look at my poor little thing! He went to scratch his eye and it’s swollen now. We had to put him in this astronaut looking thing so that he’ll stop. For these few days, I’ll avoid looking into his eyes. For it always say: “Jiejie… Take this out please!”

Good news!

J and I will be working together for a company’s hard sell advertisement. He shoot, I design. Can’t wait! Most probably we’ll have a meeting on Sunday. I’m feeling so scared and happy at the same time!

Wish you a fast recovery, Auntie!

1, 2, 3

Felt so much better after telling my mum everything.

Baby, why are you making it so hard for me to love you?

It’s not like i love quarrelling, i love making sacarsm, i love making you feel sick of me, i love writing emo posts. I hate it! Yet again, we went to bed tonight, mad at each other. This is the 3rd consecutive night.

your smell stays on my pillow but for tonight i’m gon try to make it go away.

Today is a fucked up date day.
(except that Pam is finally free to meet us!)
It’s as if, all the birds chose to shit on me today.
I even accidentally burn my hand.

I couldn’t agree much to everyone now. My expectation for boyfriend is so fucking high.

You don’t even wanna know what i’m thinking now. Very disappointed.

one of the many nights

Same place, same few people, coincidental meets.
It’s becoming our favourite hangout place already.

My really nice classmate just text me. He was asking if i need a morning call tmr. So i just remembered that tomorrow is assessment day. Goodness me. I am going to Apple+Q everything now and go to sleep.

HA! I was just trying to learn how to use a Mac.

the luxury of having some time off work

So I edited pictures.

The picture which has the most Likes.

Posted before but the previous one was edited with fast editing programme.

I love low saturated pictures.

cheap club, paper flower and wild ones

Clubbed at a cheap club yesterday night with 14 year old who doesn’t study and all he did was Tiao Dang. But it was all worth it because paper flower and wild flowers surprised me.

P/S: Will do something about my nails soon.

girlfriend

Darling came over my place after my class. We had a lazy early afternoon on my bed.

After which, we went to the mall to get mascara. Marcus gave me a shock by hugging me from behind. I was thinking who the fuck was it. I wanted to turn, punch throat and kick nuts. Lucky i didn’t! Had a quite long bitching session with him and darling over at the smoking point.

Darling and I then cabbed to Bukit Timah to meet the guys. Played that scary shit game but totally screamed my stress out. Felt damn relax after that.

ahhhh, TGIF!

and i miss my boyfriend very much.